Taller has been closed since March 17, and my directs contacts has been limited to my daughter, Laynie, and Laynie’s son. Every once in a while Nicole. But that exchange is cold and bitter. I am with Elba for four hour hours during the week and for about four hours on Saturday and Sunday. On Friday nights I usually go to to Laynie’s home near Swarthmore, and stay to Sunday. Now we are planning on her coming to my apartment.
When I visit my daughter, I see her at her mothers home and I stay in the yard. Spending time with her is my special time, that is when I feel most alive, when I am happiest.
At Laynie’s there nature and love. And there is much tenderness made up quite moments, walks through the woods, long talks, and morning yoga. There is health there. She makes me put down my phone, iPad, and laptop.
But most of the time I am alone, working, thinking my daughter and sending her messages, bracketed with a morning messages to Laynie and evening check in. Even though life has not been easy, I miss have a family and being with my daughter, and in someways I am shrouded in blanket of sadness, nevertheless, I feel blessed.
